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Year In Review

Honestly, today I’m cranky. I felt dreamy beforehand when I planned to post all that’s happened this year and now at the very end of the year, I feel there’s been a misstep. It’s the dressing room mirror’s fault.

Regardless, I started brainstorming my list. It made me smile. I guess I did kind of love this one.

  • had the opportunity to work with the sweetest ESL kiddos, during this time the idea of adoption was placed on my heart and will now shape a few things I am doing with the business in the near future
  • left that amazing job after being moved to tears in June, on my balcony, over a book. Had a stirring inside me I could not ignore and knew it was now or never and though I didn’t even realize, I’d been pursuing what was ‘easier’ this entire time. So I said YES.
  • felt more peace than before because of the decision to be myself unapologetically, found my voice
  • attracted more of my people because of the above bullet
  • paid off (almost all) debt. School loans, car loans, anything and everything else is diminished. We don’t own a home so I guess no mortgage can be celebrated – for now.
  • helped Lewis Howes launch his book, was apart of SOGA
  • came clear on my vision for Live Audaciously
  • became a personal trainer
  • helped my ladies shed a combined over 200 pounds of fat – online!
  • did a pull up, almost to two in a row currently!
  • live workouts with Tony Horton & Shawn T
  • read tons of books
  • practiced gratitude more often
  • adopted another puppy (Reg dude) Who am I??
  • met my nephew Gabe, had the chance to talk to my sister immediately after she gave birth (so many tears, so happy for her)
  • put on the guest list for an intimate house show by a musician I’ve followed for the past ten years, such an incredible experience.
  • I’m not telling you how the above bullet came to fruition but I really want to; it’s hilarious (so I’ll still make it a point, because it made my entire year)
  • visited the Oregon coast and the mountains and rode a train to Washington
  • met so many incredible people
  • attended two Dave Bazan house shows
  • FaceTime with family over the holidays (was bummed about not being there but had to look at the positive, still had a chance to drop in!)
  • witnessed my friend talk about her dream of designing a planner and see each step lead to now; launched and published!
  • witnessed my husband become more and more of who he is meant to be – you can tell, there is a peace and a confidence that arrive when you step into your true self
  • was always provided for and supported. So blessed, so thankful

I acknowledge what may have been a fantastic year for me may not have been for you. If so, I hope you find strength and peace tonight and know it does get better. Life is full of seasons and the above is only my highlight reel. There were frustrating, angry and off moments too. I also hope you find a moment to tease out the miracles this year held for you. May your next trip round the sun be blissful. xoxo

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Simplicity is a Blessing

This morning I had the strongest craving for Honey Nut Cheerios. I haven’t had cereal in five years (thank God) but today I wanted a bowl. Nigel left for work and I walked to Publix. (It’s a funny thing, when I decide I want something, I’ve already convinced myself it’s done). As I was walking I noticed the breeze – cool enough for a jacket and also refreshing.   Seven a.m is perfect for walking. Nothing is crowded or busy. My attention was set on the coolness and serenity of being alone in the moment.

Last year, I would have been stressed at the idea of owning only one vehicle. This year, in the attitude of reduction and knowing most, if not all, individuals who retire early talk about the insane amount of money a car will cost over time. Most early retirees ride bikes or walk and have forfeited their vehicles completely.  Over the summer we concluded one vehicle was plenty. I’d be working from home 90 percent of the time and any challenge one car presented was only an opportunity to be creative.

So this morning, I was thankful to be without a car. Walking was cathartic and created space for me to reflect and be joyful in the moment. 

In this space, I meditated on what this next year will hold. I’ll be blogging through my own health challenge, which was born on the observation that my strength lies in movement. You do not have to convince me to power through a workout, or to stretch, or to enthusiastically occupy the dance floor..!  However, I’d rate myself as decent in overall health. I know how to feed my body (mostly) and I put this into practice (mostly). But why is mostly enough when “our body is a brilliant piece of machinery that outperforms even the most advanced computer,” ?

What I haven’t mastered is true health from the inside out. I want to set out to do what feels nearly impossible. I want 2016 to be the year of complete health. This will include transitioning into a completely organic household beginning with food (inside) and ending the year examining our environment (outside). Obviously, you’ll find so much in between so please follow my journey. I’ll be blogging from a different space as well as soon as my business website is launched.

For now though, consider all that was bread of convenience: our homes, grocery stores, fast food chains, the microwave, cars, airplanes, cell phones. Everything we quickly enjoy, but how we pile it all on ourselves until we’re suffocating, until we are stuffed fat with lethargy, until we have forgotten the true peace and beauty of simplicity. The blessing of having and needing little. The weight metaphorically and literally you’ll lose when you clear out the ‘stuff’ and the ‘junk’ and the desire to hoard the unnecessary (most of it).

I had been disappointed in our ‘humble Christmas’ this year until I was alone with the thought. The simplicity in the lights and the stockings and a few pieces of trim (branches snagged from outside) decked our home perfectly, sweetly, simply. This moment and season are whole. God, we are blessed.

 

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Compartmentalized Faith

Or, faith that suits you.

It seems a theme practiced especially in America is compartmentalized faith, or the idea that one truth only permeates in certain conditions. For example, when someone believes God will take care of them in any situation, and then any random situation occurs, and they forget their belief and retreat into fear. Or when we are asked to take in refugees and we decide that caring for those in need is conditional.

Or when we’re afraid to quit our job when we know it’s the right thing to do. Or when we can only give a little of ourselves because if we give more, we might be at a loss. Or when that scared voice inside is all that we  hear. When it starts counting scars instead of blessings and hurts instead of beauty.

We complicate the simplest of truths. Here’s one: you have faith or you have fear. You cannot have both. Well, maybe you can have both but only one will be driving. So which is it? Is the faith that you were created in such a way, that whatever happens if you wrap hold the faith you know you have somewhere – it will be ok. Or is it fear who tells you to look out for you no matter what because if you don’t, no one will? When in reality, the more you wrap yourself up and take care of you, the more you take away the opportunity for someone to love into your life.

Please open up this season. Give and share more of yourself because you were made to bless someone. You have unique talents that will heal the broken if you let faith drive you.

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Seasons

Phew. September was difficult. After a summer of flying high, late August and September were the months that grounded me. Feeling thrown back into something I sprinted from left me bitter and searching for focus and gratitude. I welcome this month with arms fully extended, blissful at the thought of leaving the rest behind.

October, you son of a bitch, where you been hiding? 

In an effort to hold myself to writing more freely and more often, I’ll be including my “currents” at the end of my posts:

READING: Put Your Dream to the Test by John C. Maxwell

LOVING: my new functional planner by Dana Bowman @functional15

LISTENING: to Lewis Howes School of Greatness (podcast) & Derek Webb’s Ctrl album + random songs by Audrey Assad

MOVING: to those beats above & my p90x3 routine (you need inspiration to move? see me)

ASPIRING: to make this routine

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Photo: by me @Cheekwood; Artist: Juame Plensa

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