truly, madly, deeply is playing right now. is that the name of it? i know it’s by savage garden – ha. and i remember vaguely hearing this song at the grocery when i was a senior in high school.
god, that’s so far away.
even yesterday feels distant.
so i’m taking deep breaths and doing the next right thing. because that’s what oprah says to do. and the next right thing is another deep breath and allowing myself grace.
grace because i was only divorced three months ago, and i’ve been transient for over a year, and i’ve been freelancing during this time, and i broke up with my boyfriend and popped my tire in the same week. this week. today.
and i went to california and italy this year, all while transitioning, and new friending, and falling in love again.
i moved here and i moved to nashville and i moved back here again.
i said goodbye to my puppies.
action, movement, motion.
almost poetic as we transition into winter i’m finally pausing.
finally acknowledging – damn, amanda – a break down is not weakness. in fact, it’s healthy.
a trauma research study stated divorce, moving, finding a new job, and losing pets all in the highest category of stress and life change.
another deep breath. and two more.
this life is truly, incredibly beautiful. i see opportunity. possibility. growth. transformation. empathy. power.
i also see a trampoline down here at rock bottom. (i’m teasing, this doesn’t feel like rock bottom)
deep sigh, exhale, SMILE –